Want to explain this a bit?
PSA = prostrate specific antigen
Is that explanation enough ?
No ?
About a year and a bit ago I woke up in the morning with my left foot hurting like you can't even possibly imagine. Three of the toes were honestly black.....not black and blue, not purple, but black.
It hurt far worse than broken bones.....far far worse. I know this having had way more than my share of broken bones and have the scars from surgery to prove it.
But, anyway, I go to the doctor and of course they xray everything, check with ultrasound for any blood flow restrictions, do several other things, and finding nothing sent me home with some fairly weak pain killers telling me it will probably pass and I was just stepped on by a cow or something (I live in a farm area so it's not inconceivable).
The pain became even worse in a few days and trust me I was chugging whisky and rum and smoking weed like a mofo to ease the pain, I mean any port in a storm, right ?
I go back to the doc's orifice....I mean office and visited a different doc, pretty much same tests with the addition of a few more, including a blood test. With a stronger pain med prescription I went home.
This doctor called me 2 days later on a Sunday, and she was in tears quite obviously and tells me my PSA is at 435.
Normal PSA is under 4, and ideally less than 2.
Kewl, I have bonified and verified stage 4 prostate cancer.
Of course the next few days are a whirlwind of seeing the urologist, a heart surgeon, so many tests I don't even think I could guess at the number (50-60-100???).
Yup Gleason 7
Yup, metastisized....into the spine (currently 6 vertebrae at this point).
Blah blah blah.....
Now I take morphine and oxycontin (always at the same time) in order to walk, have had a full spectrum of radiation, take bicalutimide, xtandi, whatever the fuck else and still have fucked up black toes that are now thankfully numb/tingly and not a clue why those toes are still fucked up.....I have asked them to speculate, throw out a wild fucking guess.
Nope, not a clue why my toes are fucked up.
I also now have the 2 smaller fingers on my right hand as numb/tingly along with a stripe down the outer forearm.
That started a bit ago as a sore as fuck shoulder.
I assume it's spinal column damage related.....but that's just me, I'm not a doc, just a terminal cancer patient.
I.E.
Those random pains can mean a whole lot.
Whaddaya think eh ?
Yea they want to implant a fentanyl pump into me.
Some spinal dweeb punk ass doc wants to fuse 6 fucking vertebrae along with lazering some of the tumor areas while he's in there.
Fucka buncha that shit.
I plan to keep as much dignity as I can for as long as I can and then eat a bullet.
Like Jimmy Stewart, it's a wonderful fucking life.
And I can still outshoot your ass.