Have you ever received any firearm training before? Regarding the fundamentals of marksmanship, stance, grip, trigger maniplation, "work space", etc?? How long have you owned firearms or been shooting for?
Your grip and pistol fit-to-hand is one of the important parts to have squared away first as a new pistol shooter, IMO. FWIW, ive been a competitive pistol shooter from 12 y/o to current 37. Also did 13 years of federal L.E and tactical operations experience. I can get in the stack and really fuck up the Tangos in the shoothouse. Primary and secondary weapon systems, alike. Would do a zoom chat for nothing but your time if you really wanted some help or initial guidance on marksmanship.