I think the bone of contention may revolve around your description of CKs contractions being an attempt to pray when it was actually the result that others described here, plus I believe the shot nicked the brain stem. So, I think at least one person is doubting that your description is accurate, though it may help you feel better. And I say that as a person who believes in God but I have my limitations, as well.You must be an expert
You and I are not enemies. Stop trying to change that please
I inherited some things from my mother such as "May God have mercy on your soul. I will not."